this is so wrong. today is the worst bday that i have experienced yet. my heart was cracked into a million pieces, im not talking about my lovelife, im talking about my life as a student in ZNNHS. this blog is all about me being an SSG officer.

i first ran as an 1st year representative last july, and luckily i won, and i have been servin the school since then, i wanted to continue my service so this week was a very tiring week for me, i have been campaigning for the last 3 days and i was running for the possision of 2nd year representative, but unfortunately i lost, i cant believe this! all my hard work was turned out to be nothing!! this is so unfair!!

Grief is a very personal thing. You can not explain
it. Grief is an emotion, and like the essence of a rose, emotions are
indescribable in words. Every grief is different. The way you grieve may
be entirely different than the way I grieve, yet both of us will probably
share many of the same grief symptoms: Sorrow, anger, loneliness, sadness,
shame, anxiety, guilt pain, loss, blame, emptiness, and
depression.

   Five Stages Of
Grief

   1. Denial and Isolation. At first, we tend to
deny the loss has taken place, and may withdraw from our friends, family,
co-workers, and social contacts. This stage may last anywhere from a few
minutes to months, depending on each individuals grieving
style.

   2. Anger. After the reality sets in you might
become very angry, even furious with your ex. Hell hath no fury like a woman
scorned or a man rejected. Most of us , too, will become angry
with ourselves for even letting the event take place, right up to
the point of blaming ourself for the entire breakup. We inevitably go through
the "if I only’s" and the "I should have or shouldn’t have done this or
that’s"…

   3. Bargaining. This is where we start to make
bargains with God; beg with our exes to take us back; and try to turn friends,
co-workers, and family members into co-conspirators on our obsessive quest
to gain this person back. We call our exes with invented tragedies, or
emergencies, just to make contact ; we try to ‘accidentally’ run into them
somewhere where we know they might be; we decide we immediately need to retrieve
that old sweater we left in their apartment…all in hopes that…well, you
know! And if we do manage to get their attention, if only for those
‘accidental’ few minutes, we immediately lose all self-respect and start
begging or crying, "If I do this or don’t do that, will you please, please
take me back?" Yep..it is at this time that we become unattractive &
desperate beggars, pleading with our exes to please (please..PLEASE)
take us back and give us another chance. This is the blind stage where we
tend to take the blame, mistakenly believing that "we" did something wrong
and another chance will miraculously cure the problem. All we manage to do
is strip ourselves of our pride, self-respect, and dignity, leaving us to
feel humiliated and rejected…oh, argh!

   4. Depression. We start to feel numb and turn
into zombies. Our anger and sadness may still be there but remains hidden
and masquerades as a depressed state. We barricade ourselves in our home
or apartment, close the drapes, and refuse to get out of bed. We call in
sick at work and cancel plans with friends. We only answer the phone in hopes
that it may be ‘them’ calling, and when we discover it’s not them the
cycle begins all over again. In order to break the cycle you need to reach
Stage 5.

   5. Acceptance. Finally it’s over! The anger
has passed, the sadness has tapered off, the depression has lifted and we
see reality and it feels great. We will survive!

  Ways you can reach stage five more
easily.

Stage 1. Acknowledge
your grief. Denying your feelings is harder on the body and mind than
going through them. Wallow in them if you want, wail out loud, punch your
pillow, cry to your mother, write sad poems, let your heart mourn….it’s
your grief and it’s very real. Allowing grief to surface is the only way
to let it go. Without this difficult stage we could never move pass the loss.
Don’t feel pressured to hide or deny  your emotions, but to accept them
for what they are.

  Stage 2. Allow
your anger but resist the temptation to place blame. Stage two is usually
short-lived. A healthy lifestyle will be most beneficial in getting you through
this stage. Grieving and stress usually pass more quickly with good self-care
habits, eating balanced diets, plenty of fluids, exercise, and adequate rest.
When you start to feel ’self-blaming’ then pamper yourself with a bath, rent
your favorite movie, go for a hike or bike ride, buy a new puppy, tour your
local museum, or visit your family or close friends. Taking special care
of yourself re-establishes your self-value and worth. When you pamper yourself
you again feel good about yourself and the need to place blame
disappears.

  Note: Our emotions
always run their highest in the late evenings. I have no idea why! I read
just today to keep a calendar by your bed and for each day fill in a different
thought, it can be anything. Such as one day the thought would be about growing
a flower/vegetable garden and what kinds of plants you would plant, the next
what you would buy your mother if you suddenly won a million dollars…things
like that. Then at night, before you go to bed, look at your calendar and
that is the thought you are to have when you close your eyes. Sounds like
fun even if you weren’t having a difficult time!

   Stage 3. Three simple steps!
Intercept, resist, and divert by redirecting. Whenever
you feel that urge to give in and try to contact your ex, stop!
Intercept your thoughts, resist the temptation and divert
by redirecting your interests elsewhere with more self-gratifying activities.
You will feel so much better when you walk away with your pride intact and
your head held high. Believe me, there is nothing worse then the feeling
of loss of dignity. Our dignity is our self-temple. It’s how we judge ourselves
as human beings. It’s where we place our worth. And there’s nothing better
than the feeling of our own strength as we resist the temptation and
redirect ourselves to a more productive course.

  Stage 4. Depression
is a symptom of suppressed emotions. If you followed my directions and allowed
your feelings to surface, took good care of yourself, and did not give in
to placing blame, you should be able to slip through this stage with barely
more than a one day "oh, woe is me" sigh!

  Stage 5. Doesn’t
it feel great to be out of a relationship that was so wrong for you? As your
dark clouds have now parted you should feel a beautiful, cleansed feeling.
Your soul has been reawakened and you see all the beauty that surrounds you.
You are truly an amazing person and so fortunate to have a whole life time
of special moments ahead of you!

hehehe, hi guys!!!
its really weird having this kind of feeling, na uhmmmm basta!!!
you’ll know..hehehehe
the one na you’ll get butterflies in your stomach and feel something incredibly new in you…
its just something na you dont ever wanna let go….
i wish that this feeling would never die…………

ok guys its official…my life is totally great and totally bad!!!

i know its confussing but its true!!!

ok let me tell you the great part, well i cant tell you everything but i can giv you small details, ok here it goes…

i made a desicion that i was soooo confused but in the end it worked out, i was sooo confused on which "sandal" will i pick, the one i really loved bot i lost it for a few years then i moved on and found a new "sandal" to love, but i though that my new sandal was broken so when i found my old one then i realized that my new one was not yet broken, so i have to choose and new one and let go of the old…

and my bad news is im afraid that i may get low grade!!!

and i dont know how parents will take it!!

they are used of seeing me on top but now, its soooo hard cuz the compitition is sooooo hard!!! dont know what to do!!!

this is sooooo hard i wish i would disappear!!!!

well thats life, its never fair…:-(

well guys….believe it or not, my fairytale ending ended with a snap….

all i ever wanted is that he will never know what i feel for him( so much for that)

well after this scholl year, i was planning to go to another school so that i wont get hurt more.

so, i decided that i would transfer to SVC(saint vincent’s college) cuz there no one knows me, thats a great way to start….but if your a ZNNHS student well you can tell all it doesnt really matter…. well i have to ask the permission of my parents though, so there’s a chance that i will not be in SVC next school year.

BUT

i will try my best that i would pass the PSHS(phil. science high school) so that i will continue my HS (high school) years there so that i wont b able to see him again…..

well i just hope that it comes true!!!

ok i dont know why im saying this but everytime i see him i feel that i want to scream and never took my eyes of him!!!!

i dont know why but ever since my friend told me that his cute i kinda realize that she’s right…..i mean i always see him like 6 times a week for like 4 years from now but it was just a couple of months ago i realized that he is really cute!!

i cant believe i have fallen for him!!! this is soooo wrong!!!!his taking up a thing that would really give me no chance to be with him!!!!

i really hate to get my heart broken cuz i really like him!!!!

i really never spoke to him before, well maybe i did but it was not less than 2 minutes!!!i really want to get to know him better cuz  thought that if i knew him well, there might be a chance to that we could be friends in a way that we can talk after classes or maybe during(but right now were not)

well thats for now!!

by!

I never thought that things would turn out the it did cuz i just thought that having summer classes would just be inside the classroom listening to the teache and go home…………..

………………………..

but i was wrong,it was more fun and more exciting!!!i didnt made the wrong choice!! i wasnt really going to summer classes cuz i know its not nessessary cuz im a Phil Sci scholar and were exemted during the entrance exam….but i thought that if i dont join the summer class it would be very borring at home….

everyday, befor and after classes me and my friends would gathere outside our rooms(were the in the same sections)and just talk and have fun and we always do when we were still in our elementary school it was soooo much fun cuz i never felt this kind of happiness in me for like such a long time and im really happy that i met new friends cuz its really fun being with them……:-D

april is here and i cant believe that its summer!!! im soooo happy that i can finnaly rest!!!! i want this to be an awsom summer ever!!!!

cuz i going to high school!!!! its gonna be sooo exciting!!!! i cant wait to meet new freiends……….

well enough about that………….im gonna spend my days exploring the country,,,,its gonna be awsome!!!!

It was exactly 4:45 pm in dipolog pilot demonstration school when the cleaners of the backyard started cleaning…..they started to put fire so that the leaves would burn and to an unfortunate event the fire was taken inside the canteen forcing eveeryone to think that there was really a fire which wasnt even there.so the head techer of the said school rished to the phone and called the fire police….since the fire wasnt too big ,it was put off the the student teacher of the said section before the fire police came.some of the cleaners paniced but they were mosly calm and confident that everything would be alright….and it was indeed alright….

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